Partying, Drugs & Sex

Are forbidden. 

Drugs have never actually caught my curiosity. But that doesn't mean they don't affect me. My best friend (ex best friend I guess...), really wanted to try smoking weed. Whatever, go for it. I didn't care what she did until I realized how fucked up it made her. Everyone does it. Or has done it in high school, that's a common fact.

One night my dad got drunk. Not crazy drunk. He's a happy drinker, he gets really nice and opens up. Whenever he does get drunk, he feels the need to have a talk about marriage or car insurance or boys. Katie, I want you to save up enough money, so whenever you're ready to leave the Canadian asshole you marry, you can!

That's just one of the things he said. But anyways, I make lots of promises to him. Because I'm a daddy's girl and I love him. He said to me that night: never smoke weed. So, I promised I wouldn't, and I do not wanna break that promise. One of my biggest fears is disappointing my dad.

My dad is not overprotective. He let's me stay out late and go out anywhere I want. But when it comes to going to a party or a boys house, that's a big fucking no.

And then I convince him to let me go party. (I just go to a boys house anyways, I don't even do it often, not like I'm making out with him anyways, we usually just play video games).

He worries when I party. He worries about me doing drugs. And he worries about me having sex.

When I know people who gets high at least once a day, who have had sex with over 20 guys, and who party on a regular basis, getting drunk off their ass.

I don't know why teenagers feel the need to do this shit. I myself would rather just sleep in until 1:30 and then watch a movie like Pulp Fiction or The Aristocats. I've lost friends because of drugs and I've lost rtust because of parties. It's a big fucking mess. This is definitely the worst stage in life because I'm lost and don't know where to turn or who to turn to. The point of this entry wasn't even about my experiences but somehow it turned to that.

At least I won't be a stripper when I'm older.