My High School Mistakes + The Wanted List

I did a lot of dumb stuff without realizing it.

And I regret a lot.

1. Wearing a belt buckle every day. As cool as I thought this was in grade 9 and 10, I regret it so much. Especially since i wore Fox Racing, Superman, and Volkswagen belt buckles.

2. Using self tanner. Because I hate being noticed and everyone noticed. "Nice fake tan, orange is my favourite colour." Never. Again.

3. Wearing a push-up bra that leaves bra lines through the shirt. Seriously, people got the wrong idea there.

4. Hair bands. I'm not talking headbands.. I'm talking metal hair bands with big "charms" on them. Totally not right.

5. Wearing imitation converse. Although you'd think people wouldn't judge you for your clothing, they do. And they know what's fake.

6. Wearing the same jacket once a week. Seriously, that's how people will remember you if you wear something too often. "That chick with the pink jacket."

7. Putting big cellphone charms on my cellphone. Please don't get me started with this. It was just so embarrassing.

8. Putting on fake nails. Just like clothing, they know if you've got other fake stuff. And not just nails, but hair too.

9. The awkard, overgrown side bang. Yeah. That doesn't work. At all. Ever.

10. Bring tons of food to class. I'd always bring tons of rice cakes to class and make a mess. AWKWARD.

11. Putting make-up on improperly. Seeing foundation streaks and cracked lipstick lips is not attractive in anyways, trust me on this one, I know.

12. Cutting my hair too short. Although this may not be something others will regret. I REGRETTED IT SO MUCH. Make sure you get what you asked for.

Now, onto a lighter note.

What I want, and if I can even get my hands on it:

1. St. Germain MAC lipstick
2. Eyeliner (I'm almost out)
3. A proper haircut (Birthday money shall pay that, so I'm not worried)
4. New glasses (A problem since frames are SO expensive)
5. Ears pierced for the second time (Hopefully tomorrow, hopefully no more than $20)
6. L'oreal colour riche baby blossom gloss
7. Covergirl advanced radiance powder
8. Revlon Colorstay foundation
9. Hoop and stud earrings (From Ardenes, so hopefully wont be too expensive)
10. Silver glitter eyeshadow (PLEEEASE, I CAN'T FIND IT)
11. Girly mug (For my new tea addiction!)
12. Curling iron
13. Bronzer (Any kind I don't give a fuck)
14. Blush (Ditto ^)
15. Bright neon blue eyeliner (Pink would be nice too, have yet to see it though)

How Social Media Kills

It kills a lot of reps.

A lot. And I noticed that today when a girl posted a picture of herself in her bra on Twitter. It was funny. And then her friend did it comparing. And I like her and know her, and she's nice. Then more and more posted it and it just became so.. Disappointing. What would their fathers say?

Then came disgusting, bare asses. Well, only one of a girl. I saw at least three boys doing it. I just wanted to shoot myself. This is why I hate school and my generation. It's definitely not very funny.

One of my close friends might be moving. Too bad. I seriously hope that doesn't follow through.

Twitter just reminds me of school. And school just reminds me how I hate 95% of my peers. And my peers make work and learning living hell, which affects my grades, which will affect my future. The struggle is real. I can't take it. Life, why must you be so cruel. 

Twitter and Instagram make me realize how unattractive I truly am too. Some girls are so beautiful. With perfectly straight blonde or brunette hair. A nice bum. Perky boobs. A gorgeous smile with perfect, straight, white teeth. No smile wrinkles or thin eyebrows. It irritates me and makes me strive to be more beautiful. I am beautiful, but not confident.