No more binging.
Although I've had thoughts of purging, it is something that I am mentally and physically incapable of. There's something about vomiting that I cannot do. The lost time I did it was when I was partying, and I have little recollection of that.
But I always end up binging after trying so hard to eat healthy.
Yogurt and cauliflower and apples becomes cake and fast food and ice cream.
I try so hard to control myself but I can't. I just want to be really thin and healthy. I'm not just doing it for the way my body LOOKS, but also for the way my body FEELS. I want to stay away from sugar because I eat too much of it, and do not want to end up diabetic and later on regret what I have done. The sooner I change my habits, the better. And it starts NOW.
Now. Now it something I always say, but never happens. But this time. I'm. Serious.
